Mental health update:
I know I should update you guys monthly and keep a check for myself but with everything going on it slipped my mind.
Since the last time I wrote about this, I’ve actually been a lot more mentally stable. I’m not going to say that I haven’t been in a bad place, I have quite a few times but I’ve handled it a lot better. Not handled it well, I do have weak moments but better than before.
Things that I learned:
⁃ During this time I’ve realized a lot of people who adore you don’t understand your state of mind, but that’s okay. Give them space and time to understand.
⁃ I’ve also learned that we should take things a little easy. Doing things under stress brings you no outcome instead you lose out on the journey to the final destination.
⁃ I have yet to learn how to control my anger when I’m feeling a certain way. It’s something that comes to me naturally because I’m generally a hot head.
Things I feel:
⁃ When I’m feeling my best, I’m optimistic about my life, my goals and this blog. It’s the complete opposite when I’m down.
⁃ I’ve had days when I want to be alone but at the same time being alone was making me scared.
⁃ Walls were caving in and I felt suffocated. But this feeling eventually did end.
⁃ Moving on, I excessively thought about things. For instance, I thought about this blog so much that I wanted to delete it.
⁃ I had days when I woke up upset and that boiled down to people I adored.
This time around I felt more than I learned. I’m still trying to take small steps and make myself a better person. It’s just the little things in your head make it so easy for you to instantly notice and accept the bad, when sometimes all you need to do is ignore that and look at the good.
One thing I’m trying incorporate in my life is, if 2 bad things happen to me and 1 good thing all I want to focus on is the 1 good thing. That’ll make my day better not the negative stuff.
Love yourself and you’ll be fine. I’ll be fine too🙌
Stay sane and lots of love, this is adventuresofapakistanigirl signing off xo.